Expectations

In this up and down emotional state that I am in recently I have come to the realizations that I need to start managing my expectations. The expectations of not only myself but of others. So I'm trying to expect less of myself...less than perfection. Why do I have to have a clean house? Fuck it. Why do I need to be up to date on pop culture? Fuck it. Why do I need to be the calm mom all the time with the kids? Fuck it. Why do I need to always comply? Fuck it. Why do I need to care so much about what others think of me? Fuck it. If I screw up and disappoint all those around me, that's life. If I've changed and you don't like it, FUCK YOU.

Others, I expect a lot of you. I expect a lot from friends and even more from family. I realized that I put unrealistic expectations on how I want others to function in their lives. If I expect perfection from myself it does not mean others have to as well. So FUCK IT! If you don't call me back I am not going to assume you're upset with me. If you don't do the fucking dishes that are staring at your face, I don't care. Maybe you're going blind? If you walk away from me, I don't care. Possibly you didn't hear me. And so on.

On a positive note I am also learning to appreciate my friends more than ever. I am recognizing that I NEED them in my life. I can see that these women in my life (you know who you are) I cannot survive without. They are my foundation. They are my strength. Thank you. I don't say that enough. Thank you for your continued support. Thank you for your acceptance. Thank you for your advice. Thank you for standing by me and never letting me fall too low. I don't think I could survive without your love.

Fucking it all,
Annie

Hope none of you are too offended by the 9x's I said Fuck in this post. Now 10x's.

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun!

There is nothing in the world like hanging with your girls! I mean seriously I crave girl time constantly. After living 9 years with a man I appreciate girl time MORE THAN EVER. Can I hear a holler out there from all you ladies??? Have you ever been so frustrated with the testosterone in your home and the work it takes to communicate with a male? In those moments I think, If I was talking with my sister or one of my girls there would be no problem here...we understand each other...things do not EVEN HAVE to be said, we just know! When I get to this place I pick up the phone and dial the ladies and get a girl's night set up on the books.

Last weekend I had just that with my sister and a wonderfully dear friend. It was happy hour and we hit the local watering hole decked out in our summer best. The time was filled with that non-stop kind of talking where you find your self exhilarated by the discussion. It's not like we discussed anything of serious consequence. Mostly we talked sex, love, menstrual cycles, fashion, and our frustration with the male brain. Once we got a few cocktails down things were in full swing. We laughed so hard we cried. My friend and I were really amused by my sisters tales of dating. She made us horse laugh with the stories of all the idiot men out there. In turn I think we scared her away from marriage with our tales of boring sex, annoying man habits, and the daily grind of raising a family. But in the end we raised our glasses and cheered GIRL TIME!

Walking back after the happy hour I stared humming "Girls Just Wanna Have Fun" in my head. In my opinion it is one of the best songs ever written, a mantra of sorts for all of us ladies. No matter what life situation you are in this is YOUR song!

"That's all they really want
Some fun
When the working day is done
Girls-- they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun

Some boys take a beautiful girl
And hide her away from the rest of the world
I want to be the one to walk in the sun
Oh girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun"

Isn't it true...that's all we really want, some fun? So the next time as a married lady you are laying there and your husband is trying to caress your body and get into your pants, but all you can think about is the health of your cuticles, call your girls. Or as a single lady when you run into a one night stand and he runs away and hides you've gotta call your girls!

WE JUST WANNA HAVE SOME FUN!

-Signed

Annie